Thanks everyone in my class for making plans to go out for lunch together and not inviting me.
Tuesday mornings are so awkward…the teacher just sits there. He doesn’t talk…and when he does it’s to ask someone what brand of orange soda they’re drinking. Wait, why is someone drinking orange soda this early in the morning?
I wish the weather could stay like this forever! It is so perfect for running. Yes…I’ve started running..
My ex step father stopped by our appartment today and told my mother that I was a narcissist. That’s a first! You know, it’s kinda hard to feel good about yourself when people like that exist.
I’ll embrace the cold
and find warmth inside myself
while I wait for you.
It hurts when you have someone in your heart, but can’t have them in your arms.
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I know I’m getting ahead of myself, but I was thinking about Christmas the other day. It’s either going to be really warm and cheerful or full of crying and lonliness. I’m determined to be joyous and cheerful! After all, Christmas isn’t about me anyway, it’s about Christ.
I am afraid to be alone and I hold on so tightly to the ankles of anyone who cares for me. I become a burden to those who love me; dragging behind them in the dust, my tears griming my face. I dig my nails into their skin and scream; “Love me! Love me! Please show me you love me!” Have I not learned yet, that they cannot love me enough? They cannot hold me tight enough to numb the pain. Their loving words can never fill the gaping whole in my chest.
He sent me a goodnight voice recording and I’ve listened to it like 50 times! AH!